I can
not wait for the end. It will be slow and soft like a gentle breeze brushing
gently upon the little hairs on my cheek and the sleek flow of sweat oxygen
that you start to feel less off in every heavy breath. Your muscles collapse
as you sink into a state of relaxation and all the pain and human emotional
complication solemnly slips in the thin layered varnish of empty hallow thoughts.
Neutral everything slides down a slope angled parallel to the spell of gravity.
Then you close you eyes to the white warmth of the end to a beautiful life.
Feathers from the wings of the angels embrace your soul and there energy flutters
inside your veins.
Memories float by like 35 mm film strip of all the places and people you encountered.
The movie tape wraps around your mind and as graceful as water the experiences
and sensations you have witnessed through out your whole life combine and
build an ever changing mosaic of what it means to be human. My time is passing
and I have embraced the pain and sub missed my heart to the blackness and
cold that engulfs my everything.
One day death will come and I will be relieved of the duty to be a being that
knows its own existence. I can feel the cells in my blood start to slow and
the heart pounds like a hammer against my protruding ribs. Pure euphoria as
I listen to my insides collapse and accept honorably that they can no longer
serve the vessel that carries my world.
The eyelids slowly close and the beams of light from this world of chaos blind
my cornea and the poles and rods in my round two cameras collapse and hide
in there coffin where they will rest for ever. The concept of pain and pleasure
is gone and all I know is that once in my life I felt things.
What is this? Why am I here in this black void of emptiness? It is so quiet
and dark. Sound is what it was called I think, and there were once colors
and shapes moving around in this space. Why can I not remember? Blank,……Samuel……..where………..was…………I
…………………..if……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
……………………………………………………………………………………..shhhhhh………………………………………………………………………………………………
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………sigh………………………………………
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………………….…Now I must rest.