Pain is
nothing more than a high level of energy that is difficult to control. People
fear it because they have yet to discover the true power of darkness and how
that intense amount complexity and chaos can be harnessed and channeled. When
you cut or burn your body, you feel real pain, but it is an experience even
though it may not be pleasant. Understanding the nature of how pain is inflicted
on ones self is the hard part, and my mind has not adapted to the concept.
Being alone and isolated will open you up to a whole world of emptiness. Only
in the darkness and nothingness will you find your fears and experience the
confrontation with this very real and powerful entity of pain. Crying, regret
and other signs of weakness only brings you closer. Allow yourself to sink
deeper and deeper into the hole that you dug with your unbearable thoughts.
Loop it over and over again until you can not stand it. Imagine the gore and
the possibility of intense discomfort. We hate it and only think more about
how this energy of darkness in unwanted. Wanting it only drives you away from
the experience. It is not pleasurable nor is it desired, because indeed it
is negative and naturally we don’t want to be “there”.
When you are submissive and helpless to the mind wrenching dimension of agony,
are when you have embraced the concept of pain. Once you have allowed yourself
to stoop down to a lower level of emptiness and hopelessness, nothing can
stop you.
Like a whirlwind of hell, selfishness grows and ambition becomes the fuel
for this unstoppable power of insanity and the fragile state of content ness;
which consists of instant quick fix pleasures like a premature ejaculator
that masturbates constantly, becomes rubble and petty disgraceful disgusting
pathetic small remains of the concept that does not apply to the capability
of the full potential of human intelligence, will be dust in the wind. Wind
up your emotions into a solid beam of light that never stops. Death is irrelevant
and life is delusion, so it is best we become the full fledged humans that
we are.